Within this twilight world
Lies emptiness and hate
I seek an epic journey
So that I might escape
Far away from this reality
To a world of ignorant bliss
I come from pain and torment
To embrace salvations kiss
I welcome a moment of hope
As short as it may be
But the hope always fades
And I am left empty

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Look into my life
and see all of my pain
clouds cover my soul
and continue to dump rain
Rain comes pouring down
and drowns me in my hurt
I pound my silk-lined box
as they cover it in dirt
Death appears a pleasure
a way of leaving here
Please dont cry for me
dont wipe away my tear
For in my silken box
peace I will finally find
an eternity of stillnes
a solace for my mind
My life was not worth livin
you are not to blame
Please forgive my heartache
In your heart I'll be the same

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I hate myself,
i want to die,
I'll kill myself,
And say goodbye,
To all bad things in my life,
I'll end it all,
With a knife,
Life is so hard,
Life is so tough,
How could i live,
A life so rough,
Will anyone miss me,
Wil anyone care?,
When they see me,
laying there,
a note explaining my suicuide,
and apologising for all the times i lied,
for all the time i hurt someone,
the times i cried,
will this world be better,
if i could just die?!

~GOOD-BYE~
Everytime I close my eyes I see you
I guess it must mean that the love I felt for you was true
If only you knew just what you were to me
Maybe our love could've been 'meant to be'
If you would have spoken the truth and not have lied
Maybe I wouldn't have sat all alone and cried
For I knew then as I know now
My life has to end, all I hafta figure out is how
Slitting my wrists, or hanging myself from a rope
Would be fast and easy to do if I do it correctly, that indeed i do hope
Please hurry up and say good-bye
And remember that I am the one who went thru all the pain & that I have shed enough
tears for us both so you do not need to cry

~Another Chance~
My wrists were bleeding heavily and I thought I was gonna die
And then outta no where you appeared to me at my side
You told me that we would be together forever, and then the bleeding stopped
I then realized then that we both were dead now and all of my dreams and hopes were popped
You told me a promise was a promise so thats why you were here
and also that never being able to see me again was your biggest fear
I feel so guilty now, that I decided that I had to go
Cause people really loved me, even if their love they did not show
Please give me one more chance, one more time alive
Then living life the fullest would be the only thing worth to strive

~No Title~
This place that I call home
Is certainly not the place I want to continue to roam
This gothic no where,
Is the place in which I am, but I would rather be there...
In HELL
Can't you just tell
I scar myself so I can see
That this truely is not the place for me to be
I should be dead, I should've died
But instead I have only cried
If only you knew just how much i want to die
When you tried to kill me, it was the one thing I looked forward to, to let my soul fly
To the bright pits of HELL
And if ya miss me, oh well
cuz you never showed your love to me
Now you'll know I was serious, now maybe you'll see

Wishing
What good is wishing when you have nothing to wish for?
What good is wishing when you don't want to live anymore?
What good is wishing when all you want to do is end your life?
What good is wishing when you want to stab yourself with a knife?


What good is wishing when no one cares?
What good is wishing when your heart tears?
What good is wishing when no one loves you?
What good is wishing when no one cares what you do?


What good is wishing once you are dead?
What good is wishing when all you see is red?
What good is wishing when you want to die?
It is no good so I say Good- Bye.


I Did It
As I wonder if I have enough guts to do,
What my mind is wanting to,
I look for a knife,
So I can end my horrible life.


I find the sharpest one
So I can easily get the job done.
I take a minute to write
"Mom I killed myself I didn't fight."


Then I stab myself in the chest.
Finally I will be at rest
As I started to die I could see
My life wasn't as bad as I made it out to be.


I wished someone would have showed me,
Just how great life could be.
But it's too late to take it back,
As my whole world goes black.


Let Me Be
I take this knife
Into my hand
Was a happy life
To much to demand?
It will be ok
It will be alright
This is gonna be
my very last night
I think if you were here
what I would say
Because theres no tommorow
And theres no more today
my hand slides down
the knife goes through
Just think, this is
all because of you
I'm rolling around
on the floor
Trying to get up
to lock the door
I hear your voice
as death draws near
I see your face
I have no fear
Even in death
its you I still can see
why couldn't you
just let me be


Stop the Tick
Faithfully departed, Ill see you soon,
I want to see you, hold the moon,
I am going to end my own life,
Ill hang, drowned, or use a knife.


It wont be pretty, but it wont be sad,
No one really should be that mad,
For I will be in endless peace,
My body will soon be deceased.

My days are ending very fast,
Theyll be over, Ive planned my last,
Not another day can I wait,
To leave this world, it is my fate.


Fate has a brand new meaning,
That of emptiness and screaming,
I hear the voices in my head,
Leaning hard to make me dead.


Guns and rope will do that trick,
But simple stress can stop the tick,
That might not always succeed,
But something will, I have the need.


My poem and my life must end,
Dont pick up the pieces and try to mend,
To all, I now say goodbye,
Forever and ever I will not lie.